I have been holding in my pain for the past 3 months. I can no longer stay silent. I tried to hide my pain and it lead to more stress than I can handle. So, for my own peace of mind and to answer everyone else questions and concerns. I will tell you my truth.
I was diagnosed with Bilateral (both kidneys) Renal Cell Carcinoma (Kidney Cancer) in December 2017. At first, I refused to believe it. There were some issues with reports, so everything was repeated. I still refused to believe it. I couldn’t accept this was happening to me. I used my resources and found a highly recommended second opinion. A month later it was confirmed.
Everything that is needed to be done will be taken care of. The craziness of this is March is Kidney Cancer Awareness month and my surgery is scheduled for March 14th. I have kept somewhat quiet on this matter for some time. It was going to be a private matter. Some time has passed and for me to move forward and address others concerns. I decided to vent as I do when coping with overwhelming situations.
I was told I would be criticized for doing so by others who don’t care or understand. Well, for those who have all read my first book. My life was anything but private. That however was the past and made me who I am today. I am not looking for empathy. On the contrary I have decided to no longer hide my pain and use my skills as a writer to be the advocate I am supposed to be. I finally understand my purpose in life.
I suffered for decades with depression and got through it by accepting & understanding it. Now, having this disease I will no longer shed tears and cry “Why me”. I am a fighter and will conquer this as well. I will do everything I can to raise awareness, share kindness & support to others fighting as I am and will be doing so down the line.
There are so many people in the world who have and are diagnosed every second of the day. Kidney Cancer is no joke. It is a common type of cancer at my age nonetheless a deadly disease if not treated. I have joined several groups from Kidney Cancer to Renal Cell Carcinoma Groups on social media. I will be attending seminars, webinars gathering & sharing awareness as much as possible.
I have a very strong support from my husband, sons, family, co-workers & friends. I know me putting this out there will raise questions and if you have any you can always message me.
Now that I have shared my pain with you all. I ask that all of you let go of whatever issues you have towards others. Life is too short for bitterness and bullshit; keep in mind tomorrow is not promised to anyone.
I love you all & thank you for allowing me to vent & as you know “I GOT THIS”