Sunday, January 7, 2018

I'm done; now I will smile

There are so many things going on in the world. I feel selfish wallowing in my troubles.  Yet I have to find a way to release & accept all that I am enduring somehow. The how is through the only way I know to do so; writing.

No matter what difficulties I face.  I continue to smile with hopes that I will eventually feel that way inside very soon.  It is a little hard to put on a happy face when you feel like shit inside. Yet, I still do it. 

Today was the last day.  I decided I wasn’t going to hide behind my pain anymore. All that troubles me will soon be dealt with.  I can only hope for the best in every problem I’ve encountered. This past weekend has been exhausting.  I have simply accepted the fact that I am on a downward spiral & can’t stand up.  Well at least right now I’m stuck.

I cannot get the answers I need.  I cannot move forward unless I just let everything go & walk away from it all.  That is exactly what I have decided to do.


To ALL those who are hurting me with your words, ways & actions; I am done.  I no longer choose to be waiting in silence for your attention.

To my doctors who want me to do what is best for them; I am done. To my insurance providers who only want to pay for what they feel they should; I am done.

To ALL the people I have helped because I couldn’t stand baring the thought of you going without; I am done.

I AM DONE doing & going out of my way for anyone other than myself now.  From this day forward I will live my life DAY BY DAY as it is blessed to me every time I wake up.  I will love, live & breathe life as much as my mind & body will allow it too.

I will do & go as I came into this world with nothing.  I have a roof over my head, food on my table, clothes on my back & someone watching over me daily. That is all I need. I am done; NOW I will smile.... 


Till tomorrow.. )0(

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